WiTh oR WiThoUt YoU..!!!

When he needed someone, no one turned up and every close friend whom he had always trusted left him alone...but when his friends need him den guess wat? .. he gave everything that he had  earned throughout his life for the  so called " FrienDshiP"....!!!

As usual we bunked the class and had some snacks at college canteen. I have been observing some change in Rahul’s behavior for the past 2 weeks. He has now turned into more fun-loving person in many eye-balls. He has started keeping himself busy these dayz in so many things. Moreover, I haven’t seen him with his girl who is known to be his half life. …………… 

Hey Sonam, Do you know whats wrong with him? Why all of a sudden this change? ……. Himmi, Are you serious… You don’t know anything, I can’t believe it….!! (Just taken aback me) Anyways I’ll tell you but let’s have some chocolate shake..!! (I and Sonam were steadfast friends in college during my engineering dayzz. Although she was my junior but she neither treated me as a senior nor did I treat her as a junior… We always had a perfect emotional bonding and understanding…..we blindly trusted each other and shared things. We managed our time and coordinated it in such a way that whenever we bunked classes, we’d end up together at some place…Although she was the most beautiful and charming girls in my college I had always considered her as a very good friend.

“I am not exactly sure but Rahul was involved in a break-up 2 weeks ago and the irony was that the gal had ditched Rahul for a close and trustworthy friend of his. You know him (Rahul) very well yaar, he’s been a true friend, never spoke anything against his close friends. He always sacrificed himself in friendship and let’s decides things to happen on faith. This times its height of stupidity. He didn’t go against his friend who thrashed him away in two pieces and played with his heart. The whole college knows about his true love and everyone appreciates his care for his girl.There is no one in college who didn’t know about his love “Poonam”. I wish I were there to kick the ass of his friend Prakash and girl Poonam”. I really……………………..

”wait Sonam wait?”, I interrupted . Are you talking about Prakash who is his best friend and always calls Poonam-bhabi….ahaan ….. silence for a moment but m still in shock....

Yes himmi, Prakash and Poonam both were using Rahul for long and many of his friends knew about it. Since he was so deeply in love with her, he ignored everyone who warned him and never ever doubted his friend Prakash. But someone rightly said never trust anyone blindly  as there are hardly any people who can stand for you when you need them. He was such an emotional fool that he refused to see the truth and as a result he is in tatters now. He didn’t even say anything..Instead just smiled and said “God bless you both and you always get my lucky charm whenever you need it..!!”

You know what rumour was that Prakash and Poonam were in some  kind a relationship… yes a physical and intimate one… but seeing Rahul’s good character, no one  in college  talked about it much and preferred not to spread the news like wildfire in jungle. It’s horrible but Rahul needed to change,every single person in college had sympathy for him. No body would have known about it if Amit hadn’t seen him cry alone on the roof top, watching the sky and talking to himself.

Amit was scared after listening to all these silently from a corner and told Rahul’s close friends. No one turned up because everyone knew it was best to leave him alone at that point in time. Rahul loves his personal space but was it right for his friends not to be there with him or not???..the answer I know not.……………

“holy-shit”, I giggled and moved my hand in despair!!  Sonu (Sonam nick name) that means all his smiles had nothing but tears behind them….why he didn’t slap her and his fucking friend Prakash.  He was too busy caring for his friends just because he wants to forget that day. Shit man..!! what I know about Rahul is that he is genuine by heart and can never hurt anyone. He took things upon him in order to save his friendship and trouble. He even doesn’t believe doing his own work cuz he wants his frnd’s work get completed first. I know sometimes he irritates few people but he does it to only his close friends who can ignore him and listen to him (whats the use of the friendship if there is any boundary of speaking..huhh?)“ but he didn’t do anything to them…why why?.....how could someone forgive to such an extent who looted his property and more over his own life. I know how difficult it is for him, even God may cry seeing what all he is going thru………....leave it……we cant do anything Sonam…..

……hey himmi, why didn’t you call me today (next day in canteen).I kept quiet and still in deep thought about Rahul. Hey listen..I got sthg. I nodded but ignored. She pushed my elbow and showed me a diary. “What is that”, I asked sonam. Himmi baby, this is the diary…diary which Rahul’ writes daily…..dont ask me how did I got this but just read it.!! I nodded and flipped the pages. I got the page where he has written his story about that dark creepy day of break-up.

“Poonam…!! I don’t know what to write today because I have lost my inspiration. I have no words to write, have no shoulder to cry on ,have nothing to look at, have nothing to listen to, have no one to tell how alone I am , because you dumped me  and my close friend cheated me-a friend  whom I trusted like anything. I never knew this cud ever happen in my life. I thought our love is true but….. I don’t know why you said so” I am less caring or don’t care for you and have no time to talk and listen, have selfish and use people for my work blah blah…..”baby only I know(pause)” how much I love you”..I remember the first amazing kiss we had, surprise bday blast you gave me and so many good moments. Is that all fake?. My only fault is to not let you know anything what I done for you, for Prakash and for any one else . Baby you said “be a donor of love not beggar of love” so “I do things and not let others know about it” ….is that my mistake…haha I think you should be proud of me that I never like being appreciated and was always down to earth. Do you want me to tell you what I did for people ……huh I wont because I know some day someone will appreciate me and my friendship. My friends will be recognized by others by my name that he/she is Rahul’s friend. I do good deeds and cast it into river. I like the way to live what I want to live even WITH YOU OR WITHOUT YOU.I promise to my GOD that I’ll make my fun in order to make others laugh. I’ll sacrifice my self to my friends and dedicate myself for their care. I’ll definitely become the man of trust and emotional honesty. I’ll tell the world and each friend “ dosti kya asse bhi ho saktihai….”  I’ll prove others that true friend can do anything for his/her friend.. I wil remove the tag of flirty friendship from the dictionary …………………… (after few lines) m just looking at stars and  counting them…I need smone, but nobody here to listen to me.. every close friendwhom I trusted left me alone...but I will not….whenevr they need me, they’ll find me……. guess why? .. bcuz this life is dedicated to my friends….i’ll  give everything wat i earned throughout my life for  " Friendship"....!!!

Sonam I have a plan…….. wait himmi… I know ur plan bcuz I know you. you are thinking the same as I am. (sonam always knows what  I can do in different situations bcuz she is very close to me and can read my mind)… himmi, I’ve  already taken the photocopy of his diary and sent it to her and few others where its mentioned what he has done for her. Rahul sacrifice won’t go in vain and she will surely know how much he cared about her…. Just wait himmi…just wait..!! I started reading other pages of his diary and literally my tears come out……………..

(* Special thanks to Ankit Shah to help me out in eradicating few grammar mistakes and framing sentences in an appropriate way)

(** this is fictional and has no reality to any character…hope you enjoyed…. Ur dirty friend himmi ~)